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Dupa multe tentative ramase, din pacate, la nivelul de initiativa, m-am hotarat sa exprim parerile, ideile si gandurile mele asupra diferitelor evenimente si tendinte de care ma lovesc zilnic. Asadar, incepe agale aventura mea prin aceasta lume virtuala, unde cautam si descoperim, unde devenim lacomi de nou!
Pe scurt, in spatele acestui blog este un om mic, care se afla intr-o mare de ambiguitati pe care vrea sa le dezbata cu oricine este dornic de o doza de noutate zilnica. Varsta, in opinia mea, nu este un criteriu relevant, este o alaturare de cifre care masoara un concept relativ, timpul petrecut pe Pamant. Cu toate astea, am 16 ani, aproape 17. Liceul poate ar trebui sa fie “cimitirul” tineretii mele, dar, din fericire, tineretea mea e nelimitata, tocmai de aceea liceul e doar o etapa pentru mine. Ce urmeaza dupa asta? Nu stiu, sincer nici nu vreau, pentru ca daca as sti, mi-ar disparea esenta, anume curiozitatea. Suntem tineri mereu, chiar si atunci cand poate nu vrem. Da, exista momente cand nu vrem sa fim tineri, de ce? Pentru ca asociem, involuntar, tineretea cu naivitatea si necunoasterea multor aspecte din viata. Tocmai de aceea am vrea sa ne putem numi “maturi”, pacat ca nu stim ca maturitatea e in noi, in timp ce noi o cautam si irosim cate un strop din naivitate in tot procesul asta. Am ajuns sa inteleg, intr-un final, ca expresia “de abia astept sa ma fac mare” e lipsita de sens. Sunt deja mare, daca asa vreau sa ma consider. Asa cum am spus deja, tineretea e naivitate pura, e substanta care te propulseaza mai departe, dar ce se intampla atunci tanjesti dupa ea si, din pacate, sticluta ta e goala si naivitatea e scursa undeva pe langa capac, pentru ca tu cautai maturitate? Hai sa ne bucuram de momente, sa traim in prezent, sa nu ne dorim sa fim altceva sau alcumva fata de cum suntem deja. Noi in forma initiala suntem noi insine, noi puerili.
Stii ce e incontestabil? Tu esti. Mereu ai fost si mereu o sa fii. Fara motiv, fara interes si fara sa te prefaci. In mod natural, esti unic, esti facut cu ceva al tau, special, neintalnit in combinatia asta niciodata. Oamenii trebuie sa inteleaga un lucru, traim pentru noi! Pentru nimeni altcineva, in nicio alta viata! Doar pentru noi. De ce ne renegam? De ce aruncam singuri cu noroi in noi? De ce ne patam puritatea cu anumite “standarde” pe care nimeni nu ar trebui oricum sa le atinga? Hai sa jucam un joc. Regula e simpla: orice faci, faci pentru tine. Adversari? Nu exista, unicul tau competitor esti tu. Pe tine te depasesti, pe tine te dezvolti si pentru tine castigi de fiecare data. Tu esti centrul, nu centrul Universului, caci nu esti altceva decat un suflet, dar centrul lumii tale. Piedestalul a fost ocupat intotdeauna de tine, mai mult decat atat, doar tu poti sa-l ocupi. Asta ar fi o mentalitate ideala, din punctul meu de vedere, dar uite ca realitatea nu e tocmai asa.
Tinem neaparat sa ne integram in niste categorii pentru a ne creste incederea in noi, pentru a ne convinge ca suntem “worth it”. De ce ne lasam influentati? De ce sa devenim toti la fel? De ce intram in transa asta care ajunge sa ne consume si ultima farama de incredere? Ce e increderea? Increderea e putere, e baza pe care se construieste orice alta valoare. Singurul motiv pentru care ar trebui sa ne schimbam vreodata, daca o s-o facem, suntem noi insine! Schimbarea e cel mai puternic lucru, tocmai pentru ca vine doar din interiorul nostru. Oamenii intre ei nu se pot schimba niciodata, nu facem “switch” de caracter si de personalitate, niciodata. Oamenii sunt fiinte puternice, dar puterea piere atunci cand incepi sa te lasi convins ca trebuie sa te incadrezi in unele standarde pentru a-ti putea fi atribuita o anumita insusire. Acum, cand scriu asta, mi se pare atat de simplu, dar totodata, mintea mea e invadata de toate datile in care si eu am simtit presiune sa fiu altfel. Un exemplu concret? Toata lumea spunandu-mi ca fetele cu parul drept sunt superbe, frumusete nativa. Consecinta? Eu chinuindu-ma sa am parul drept pret de 2 ore. Cu ce scop? Sa fiu hranita cu 3 complimente, iar ego-ul meu sa creasca. Din fericire, am constientizat ca nu trebuie sa fiu altfel pentru a auzi complimente, din contra, trebuie sa fiu eu. De unde dorinta sa fim toti la fel? Problema este ca nu ne limitam doar la fizic, dar incepem sa acaparam si obiceiurile nesanatoase ale altora, pentru simplul fapt ca noi admiram acele persoane. Pacat de noi si de tot ce am putea fi…
Acum chiar incep sa ma gandesc serios la cat de departe se ajunge cu nevoia de atentie si nevoia ca altii sa aiba o parere buna despre noi. Si slabiciunile vorbesc pentru noi, cand totul e mut, se citeste din privire ca ai vrea sa fii ca cel de langa tine, pentru ca el primeste complimente, iar tu nu. Izbucneste invidia? Da. Duce la ura? Duce. Dar totul se trateaza, avem pastile fericite pentru oricine, nu sunt medicamentoase, ci spirituale. Se numesc INCREDERE IN NOI.
De maine ne iubim…cu bune, cu rele, cu capricii…ne iubim, increzatori!
Primul din cate au sa vina.
February 18th, 2018
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After many unfortunate attempts, left at the initiative level, I decided to express my opinions, ideas and thoughts on the various events and trends that I see daily. So, my adventure begins in this virtual world, where we seek and discover where we become greedy for new!
Shortly, behind this blog is a small person, who is in a sea of ambiguities , where she wants to debate with anyone who is eager for a daily dose of news. Age, in my opinion, is not a relevant criterion, it is a combination of numbers that measures a relative concept, time spent on Earth. However, I am 16 years old, almost 17. High school may be the “cemetery” of my youth, but fortunately, my youth is unlimited, that is why high school is just one stage for me. What’s next after that? I do not know, I really do not want it, because if I knew, I would lose my essence, curiosity. We are always young, even when we may not want to. Yes, there are times when we do not want to be young, why? Because we involuntarily associate youth with naivety and ignorance of many aspects of life. That is why we want to be called “mature,” because we do not know that maturity is in us, while we are looking for it and wasting a bit of naivete in all this process. I finally came to understand that the phrase “I can hardly wait to make myself big” is meaningless. I’m already big, if that’s what I want to consider. As I have already said, youth is pure naivety, it is the substance that propels you forward, but what happens then you long for it, and unfortunately your bottle is empty and naivete is running out somewhere near the lid because you’re looking for maturity ? Let’s enjoy moments, live today, not want to be anything else or alumni to what we already are. We in our original form are ourselves, we as kids.
Do you know what’s incontestable? You are. You’ve always been and always will be. No reason, no interest and no pretense. Naturally, you’re unique, you’re done with something special, not in this combination ever. People need to understand one thing, we live for us! For no one else, in any other life! Only for us. Why reject us? Why do we throw mud at ourselves? Why do we get purity with certain “standards” that no one should ever reach? Let’s play a game. The rule is simple: whatever you do, you do for yourself. Opponents? There are not, your only competitor is you. You overcome yourself, you develop and you win every time. You are the center, not the center of the Universe, as you are nothing but a soul, but the center of your world. The pedestal has always been busy with you, more than that, only you can take it. That would be an ideal mentality, from my point of view, but the reality is not like that.
We need to integrate in some categories to increase our infidelity in us to convince us that we are “worth it”. Why do we let ourselves be influenced? Why does everyone become the same? Why do we get into this trance that gets us to use our last trust boss? What is trust? Trust is power, it is the basis upon which any other value is built. The only reason we should ever change, if we do, is ourselves! Change is the most powerful thing, precisely because it comes only from within us. People between them can never change, we never make a “switch” of character and personality, never. People are powerful beings, but the power is lost when you start to believe that you have to fit into some standards to be attributed to a certain appropriation. Now when I write this, it seems so simple, but at the same time, my mind is invaded by all the dilemmas in which I also felt pressure to be different. A concrete example? Everybody telling me that straight-faced girls are beautiful, native beauty. Consequence? I struggle to have my hair for 2 hours. For what purpose? To be fed with 3 compliments, and my ego to grow. Fortunately, I was aware that I should not be different to hear compliments; on the contrary, it must be me. How do we want everyone to be the same? The problem is that we do not just limit ourselves to physical, but we start to grab the unhealthy habits of others, simply because we admire those people. Shame on us and everything we could be…
Now I’m really starting to think seriously about how far it comes to the need for attention and the need for others to have a good opinion about us. And the weaknesses speak for us, when everything is silent, it is readable that you want to be like you, because he gets compliments, and you do not. Does the envy explode? Yes. Does it lead to hatred? Duke. But everything is being treated, we have happy pills for everyone, they are not medicinal, but spiritual. They are called TRUST IN US.
Tomorrow we love…good, evil, capricious…we love, confidently!
Only the first one, as more are to come.